Things are different now,

we're drifting apart,

and I don't know how to fix it.

You're starting to become closer to other people,

and I'm just sitting here watching the world go by without me.

I don't know what to do,

it hurts. 

I hope this is just a phase and we will get over it,

because if not I won't know what to do.

I can feel myself falling into a depression.  I don't want to do anything but sit and do nothing. I laugh, but I'm not happy.  If people ask how I am, I can easily put  on a fake smile and say that I'm great.  I hate that about myself.  I can be so fake.  I hate that my emotion is so deeply connected to someone else and that I have no control over it.  I'm sad all the time and I cry often.  I hate thinking of Austin because it sends me tumbling into yet another breakdown.  I'm not worried about him, I just miss him and I want him to miss me.  I want him to need me, but he doesn't.  He's going to be just fine without me and that scares me so much.  I can't go on like this for much longer before I go crazy.

things that say a lot about people:

• the way which they treat the waiter/waitress
• how they feel about the weather
• whether they dog ear pages or highlight in books 
• fingernails 
• and hands in general
• their preferred creative outlet
• how much they dread/enjoy talking on the phone
• whether or not they drink coffee
• if they ever forget to eat
• how honest they are with themselves (and others)
• if they correct your grammar
• and whether or not they get nervous before haircuts