Soundtrack to my life

so that title is soooo last year.. heh heh

anyway

i put my ipod on shuffle and these are the first 15 songs

enjoy:)

Smile Like You Mean It - The Killers

I think Tanner Christensen gave me my love for the Killers

he made me multiple cd's packed with them until finally I was addicted

Mrs. Robinson - Simon and Garfunkel

again Tanner got me hooked

weird.

I honestly did not think Tanner had that much influence on me haha

Marijuana - Kid Cudi

awww ya!

haha Jantz made me a fantastic cd with man on the moon 2 and for a month after that's all we listened to

ever.

nothing else

surprisingly I'm still not sick of it

I Get Doe - Glasses Malone

junior year right there

haha that was our jam!!

brings back sooo many memories of driving around blasting it suuuper loud

Dog Days Are Over - Florence + The Machine

I'm absolutely in love with Florence + The Machine right now

can't get enough

Upside Down - Jack Johnson
not gonna lie
Jack Johnson has one of the sexiest voices I have ever heard..

Dani California - Red Hot Chili Peppers
love.

River of Dreams - Billy Joel

I Will Follow You Into the Dark - Death Cab For Cutie
Jae's so cool he can play this on the guitar
we're just "soo indie" that we sit in the bed of my truck singing along to whatever he plays (its a whole of 2 songs haha this and Such Great Heights)
we all wish we had Chandler and Jae's skills on the guitar
and Rachel and Becca's amazing singing talent
but instead we have them and then a bunch of tone deaf boys (mike *cough cough*)

Weekend Wars - MGMT

It Wasn't Me - Shaggy
an incredibly bad but hilarious song
men are stupid

Skinny Love - Birdy
my most favorite song in the world right now
I absolutely love her voice
also the original by Bon Iver is amazing

Don't Cry Out - Shiny Toy Guns
another band Jantz introduced me to
after a bad breakup STG is alll I listened to
such a good band

Was It Something I Said? - Brandon Flowers
I secretly have the biggest crush on Brandon Flowers
soooo good

Puppets - Atmosphere
Jantz again
oh how I love the cd's he makes me

well thats it for now! hopefully these videos work
but if not you should look them up :)
oh btw I got my senior pictures taken!
check em out
http://www.byjess.com/blog/?p=1331

meh.

i have never wanted to end my life

ever

i've wanted to move away and never see anybody i know ever again

but i've never wanted to die

that's just silly

i know i don't have any say over when i die

but i have a say over how i look on life

which is key to happiness

i know what it's like to be depressed

and frankly, it sucks

but for the most part, it's a choice

feeling sorry for yourself isn't going to help

and neither is killing yourself

i love life

i would never end my own

there is so much that i have to do and see before i can leave this life

religion

• I think it's vital to have have religion in your life
• when people don't have guidelines and consistency, they tend to go a little crazy and make bad decisions
• sometimes I struggle with certain concepts and actions of my church but the principles it teaches and the values it gives the people within it, is exactly what people need 
• I have great respect for all religions and I love learning about all of them - I think it's important to know what other people believe and what they worship - it helps to understand them more.  
• when everything in life is hectic, I can always count on church to be peaceful, consistent, and exactly what I need

why people do drugs and drink consistently, is beyond me.

even though they've been warned throughout their entire life and been given great examples of why they shouldn't, they still do.

i'm not judging.

i get that its fun, that you can get away from everything, party, do crazy things you wouldn't normally do, and that it's just so great!

but really?

how great is it?

how many families have been torn up because of it?

how many relationships have been ruined because of it?

how many stupid things have you done that you'll regret?

is it actually making you happy?

i don't know the answers to all of my questions.

i do know countless families broken up because of it.

i've seen it in my own.

watched how devastated family members are.

been devastated with them.

80% of my friends from last year all do it.

are we still friends?

nope. 

because of it?

i'm not sure.

i do know it played a very big part in it though.

it may make you seem happy for awhile.

but in truth its not helping.

its hurting everyone around you

but honestly do you care?

that's the saddest part.

is that you just don't.

so my view on drugs?

they suck.

speaking from experience:

it's just not worth it

In the Future...

I want to be happy

I don't really care if I end up being super successful, or if I'm rich

I just want to live a satisfying life.

I do want to get married and have kids :)

I want to be a good mom, like my mom or my grandmom and my aunts. They're great examples. My grandmom especially, she knows exactly how to make you feel good and discipline you properly so that you do things to please her instead of because you're forced to do it. My kids will probably be spoiled - they're gonna be dressed well, have the cutest rooms ever and we're gonna do lots of fun stuff. 

My house is going to be awesome. I don't care if we buy a run down piece of crap house, I'm going to make it beautiful. Bright and clean and happy. 

I don't know what sort of job I want to have, probably something in art. 

Like: 

Interior Designer
Fashion Marketer
Photographer
Graphic Designer
Anything that gets my creative juices flowin.
BUT I am also fine with having a boring job. As long as it allows me to make enough money to support my hobbies.

When Sunday afternoons get boring....

now what on earth do i do with all of them?!

Bright bags commercial

I was in a commercial!! 

haha its a little bit cheesy:) 

but enjoy!

So it looks like I've finally given in to this blog craze! So I'll start off with the usual get to know you sort of ordeal

• I can be a quiet person.  In fact I think a lot of people think I am shy.  But it's more of a "I'm content with quietness" sort of thing than a "I'm too shy to talk to you" thing.  I don't feel the need to fill up silence with chatting.
• I doodle.  A lot. I think I'm a little A.D.D. since I can never listen to anything without drawing some strange design on every paper in sight.  My teachers absolutely hate it.
• I am a terrible listener.  Most of the time I listen for about a minute and then talk about myself.  It's a really selfish habit I have and I am trying to be better, OR I just sit there and don't have any brilliant pieces of advice, BUT I'm good at keeping secrets which should count for something right?
• I go through phones like toilet paper. 6 in the past year. All beauties.
• I drive a cute little truck! She has no cup holders, no tape deck, bad tires, no AC, the heater doesn't work simultaneously with the radio, and I absolutely suck at driving her.. BUT it's still fun:)
• I love photography.  My dream job is to be a photographer for National Geographic. That would be absolutely amazing.
• I love to laugh ha ha ha ha loud and long and clear ha ha ha ha! No but really I do. I will probably laugh at anything remotely funny. Especially when nobody else is. Which then makes the situation even funnier
• Ducks. are. adorable. I went to the pet store the other day and... they sell ducks!!! Who knew?! And now ever since then, I want one. I can't stop thinking about it. Ever. ducks. ducks. ducks!
• I love being with friends, even when we're doing nothing at all.  I just wanna be with them and have fun all the time!
• Most people drive around, windows down, blasting rap or pop or rock or something unoriginal like that.  Not us.  We are classy people. Jazz is all you'll hear coming from our car.
• I kind of like clothes. A lot.  
• I do a little victory dance every time I get a green arrow to turn left - except not so much lately with driving a stick and all.. but it still makes me extremely happy
• I ALWAYS have something in my hair.  Always.  (right now its a black and white feather extension. first time I've ever paid someone else to put something in it)
• I honestly do not like haunted houses.  I don't get the thrill of going in and scaring the crap out of yourself.  Most of the time I don't even get scared, I just get an awful nasty feeling. So ya. I'm pretty boring when it comes to stuff like that.
• TimTams are amazing.  I could quite easily eat a whole package and not share with ANYONE. And I wouldn't feel bad at all.
• I live for the summer time. the sun. the tan. the time. the friendships. the memories. the late nights. the carefreeness. all of it.  Winter is alright, you get to wear scarves and gloves and leg warmers without looking idiotic, oh and you get to go SKIING!! But winter kind of ends up being never ending and summer ends in a blink of an eye.
• I absolutely, positively love to travel! It's so exhilarating! I've been to 9 different countries and plan on going to a million more. That's right. A million

          Happy Friday Lovecats!